Ready or Not...

Okay, they're not coming yet...but it just occured to me that they will eventually. It sounds silly, I know. It really wasnt until we got everything done that it really hit home that these little people will actually be living with us.

And it may be sooner than later. I got taken out of work last week by the doctor. Theres not anything specifically wrong. I called the on-call doc the night before complaining of contractions. He told me to drink water, take a shower (which has helped me every time I've been uncomfortable) and lay down. I didnt have any more problems so I just waited til next mornings appointment. They hooked up monitors to my belly to check heartbeats and contractions. Babies were fine and I didnt have any contractions while laying there, but the midwife was not thrilled with the uterine activity. In her words "I'm worried about the house, not the occupants". My cervix was fine though, if a little short according to the ultrasound tech. So I'm supposed to take it easy. In theory.

I've spent the last few days running around getting stuff ready for babies. Still needed nursery stuff and a vehicle! Oh, that drove me insane. I had to have a Double Snap-n-Go stroller because all the twin moms rave about them, so I had to get carseats that fit in it. I didnt consider that they also had to fit in my car. Which they didnt.

I had been kinda holding on to the hope that I'd be able to keep the bright "Performance Red" Mustang of my teenage years, but after trying to get those car seats to fit it was very obvious that I'd have to do what I said I'd never: drive an SUV. Ended up trading it Sunday for a "light pewter" Dodge Durango. It is so freaking nondescript it makes me cry. Dont get me wrong, it's very nice; in much better condition than my car and I was able to trade it straight across without paying anything, so I got a great deal. I'm going to miss my Mustang. I enjoyed the hell out of it, and it showed (I feel awful for the people that got it, but hey she wanted it). I guess it was just time. *sniff*

I also toured the maternity ward that day. I was pretty comfortable with it. My only disappointment was that with twins, regardless of c-section or not, I can labor in the room but I have to deliver in the OR. I also managed to get a private tour of the NICU and felt pretty good about it.

Divine Intervention

I'm not about to discuss religion here, or anywhere else for that matter. I've always felt like it's a private matter, like bodily functions, and thusly should be kept to yourself (I've been living with my husband for two years and still lock the bathroom door, much to his irritation). But I will say this: I totally believe that everything happens for a reason.

So last week I dealt with the drama of being dropped by the doctors office that I wasnt terribly happy with anyway. Today I went to visit the new doctors office for the first time, just to kinda get established. I was a little skeptical walking in. I mentioned that the doctor has been practicing OB for over 40 years, right? Well...I think he may have been in the same office for all that time too. It's a little...outdated. The building anyway, all the equipment was up-to-date. And since he's one of the very few OB's to take the Medicaid, he has a lot of um....under privileged patients. I'm not trying to be snooty or hypocritical, really I'm not, it just kinda concerned me that I had to consent to random drug testing.

Anyway, I was very impressed after my appointment. The nurse spent a long time with me going over my medical history as opposed to handing me a list of crap to check off. Then the Certified Nurse Midwife came in, and she spent a pretty good bit with me as well. We couldnt do the glucose or the ultrasound today. She did ask if there was anything I'd like for her to do today, and I told her I wanted my cervix checked just to put my mind at ease. Not once did I feel like I was being a bother or an inconvenience.

Then the moment of truth: I told her how I felt about having a c-section, and she said as long as baby A was head down, we could go for it. Whew! I realize things may not go as I imagine or plan them, but I am overjoyed at finding a practice (at the last minute, no less) that is right in line with how I'd like to do things. I have another appointment in two days to do all the stuff we didnt get to do today, so hopefully that visit will go as well as this one did.